Still going, but not for long May 15, 2024
I’ve restored much of the original blog not really knowing
what impact it has, and largely know little about what is currently transpiring
in her life.
Unlike in the past in which she posted poems and essays, making
much of this clear, she posts very little that is publicly available except for
her videos.
For the most part, I ceased even following her blog back in
2015 and so have very little knowledge about what went on with her in the aftermath
of her leaving her political post – though I know she got a new job in New York
City around that time.
Her move out of the apartment she lived in since 2010 came
at a curious moment since it coincided with my moving to a new home a few blocks
away, making me wonder if there was some connection.
I assumed at the time (with nothing to substantiate this
theory) that she had moved in with someone (possibly a romantic situation) into
an apartment in upper Manhattan and commuted to work via subway. She gave up
her car years earlier while still working for the city. Occasionally, she
posted something work related, nothing personal, so that side of her life
remained a mystery.
Then at some point prior to the COVID pandemic she made a
dramatic move south, abandoning her job and her apartment (and my best guess her
romantic attachment) and floundered for a bit (with an assortment of odd jobs)
before settling into a really respectable employment (which she still retains).
Her recent move north has all the same earmarks of another
personal tragedy. I thought I heard her mention the word “divorce” in one of
her videos, but I might be wrong. Yet, it is clear she needed to move in a
hurry, abandoning a place she loved and some of her personal projects, which
she has since resumed.
I know she follows the blog in which I have been posting old
poetry and essays derived from that time when I still followed her blog closely
(as well as the whole disaster of our time working together).
I had intended to stop the whole thing, but it has become a
habit. I never intended to post any of the fantasy bits or even the poetry
journals, but kept up partly because the hits on my site suggested she was
looking at these. (don’t know if this is good or bad). I briefly took many of
these down in a panic, and then recently restored them, and will be continuing
the essays from where I left off, as well as converting the poetry journals
into poems.
I’m not sure I’ll post any more erotica or fantasy pieces (I
have no clue how she feels about them and I feel a bit odd in posting them).
All this, of course, comes in a vacuum, since unlike with
her poetry which I sometimes once believed she communicated with me, there is
no interchange under than my presumptions – which may be completely wrong.
I’m still uncertain as to when I will cease posting – having
originally planned to stop when I reached that point when I last actually saw
her at the naming of a school after a U.S. Senator. Although she continued to
post poems into 2015, these came so rarely, I had very little to write about except
to review her essays. But even these became infrequent. So, most likely, I’ll
cease posting when the majority of her poetry posting run out.
That’s the plan. But I could always change my mind. I doubt
very much whether she’ll message me in any to inform me of her preferences.
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